Strange Feelings...

Tonight Ryan is staying with my parents. This is the first time that he has ever been away from us all night. It is a really strange feeling. I'm not sure whether I should feel happy, because I am going to get good rest, or sad because I miss him so bad. I thought I was ready for this "big step." But, I had to fight tears all the way home! It was kind of a last minute decision, so I think that has contributed to my anxiety. It just doesn't seem normal for him not to be here playing and singing and talking. I'm glad I will see him tomorrow morning. :-) I know that this is a good thing, and will allow Jake and I to take the occasional weekend away in the future. Now, lets just hope that my parents are able put him to bed on time, so we don't have a problems for the next few days. I came home and got his blanket, pillow, teddy bear, PJ's, toothbrush, and story book. :-) He could have probably gone without any of those thing, but it made me feel better. I hope my parents know what they have signed up for! He is a VERY early riser. I warned them, but I don't think they really understand how early 6am is...

TP

Last night I realized that we were dangerously low on TP. So, I texted Jake, who was at his grandma's, to bring home a roll. Then I called him to make sure he got the text. Then, before I went to bed, I texted him again. Guess what people? This morning I get up, and there is NO TP in the house. Yeah. How can you forget when you are reminded 3 times???!!! Seriously???!!! UGH!

On a lighter note I had the funniest thought last night. I had just finished reading a book, and looked down an noticed that I was using TP as a book mark. :-) (You know you have done it too) Well, I thought, "I might better save that for later." LOL! Then I just started laughing on the couch. You know you are really pushing it with the TP when you are considering using the 2 squares of it you just used for a bookmark...

Marriage and Burnt Pancakes...

You may wonder why I chose to title this blog "Marriage and Burnt Pancakes" and how they are related. Well, let me start by telling you a little about my morning.

Today is our 5yr anniversary. And, in celebration of this milestone I decided to do something special for breakfast. I decided to cook pancakes, but not just any pancakes mind you. I wanted to make snowflake pancakes using a cookie cutter as my template. I made a big mistake though. I didn't get all of my tools together before starting to cook these special pancakes. As a result, the first two burned. My first thought was to just give up and not make pancakes at all. I promptly gave up the idea of making the special pancakes and decided instead to just made plain pancakes.
At first I was really upset, as I often am when I fail at something. I wanted something special and had to settle for just ordinary. Then as I was cooking I started thinking about marriage and how sometimes we burn our pancakes, metaphorically. I was thinking about how glad I was that even though we have had hard times in the past 5 years, Jake never gave up on me, or I on him. We didn't just throw out the ruined moments and give up. We didn't have all the tools we needed when we got married, but we somehow (not without help) managed to work through it and we now have a pretty good little pile of pancakes on our plate. They are ordinary, but they are good. Sometimes the special things aren't what we have materially, but are what we have without those things. So, thank you Jake for your unfailing love and dedication to me. Thank you Parents (on both sides) for being there with advice and help. Thank you friends for just lending an ear when needed. You are appreciated, and you are our very special marriage pancakes. :-)