All is quite....for now

It seems that everyone is finally back to normal in our neck of the woods. Nerves are relaxed, minds are rested, and morning sickness seems to be slacking off. Hopefully it will be gone in the next couple of weeks. I am right at 11 weeks, and everything is going really well.

My manager just found out that she will be having a boy! Now I am feeling impatient! I won't find out for at least another 6-8 weeks. Those weeks will fly by I am sure, but it just seems so far away!

Several people have asked me if I have a preference, boy or girl? The truth is that for a while I felt very strongly that I would have a boy. I don't know why really, it was just a gut feeling. Now, that feeling isn't there. It thought that I really wanted a boy. Because of these feelings, I was afraid that if I found out I was having a girl I would be upset. I even dreamed that I had twins (boy and girl) and completely abandoned the girl. In the dream I told Jake that I didn't want anything to do with her, he could have her. :-) I KNOW that I would never be like that for real, but it was still upsetting.
Now, I know that either way I will be happy. There are so many good things about boys and girls. You can't really compare the two, or at least I can't.
So, my preference is healthy.

Several people have also asked me if I am "showing."
The answer? No. I am not. :-)
My pants aren't comfortable anymore, and I am washing and wearing the same 3 pairs of pants that do fit. They aren't really too tight, its just when I sit down they hit on my waist funny. I am much more sensitive. I am even avoiding certain underware! I have noticed a slight "bump" very low on my abdomen, but it is something only I would notice, if you know what I mean. :-)

Well, I think that is all I have to update for now. I just thought I would blog real quick, while it is slow here at work. I'll keep you posted for any new developments!

Crazy!

Being pregnant is definitely going to be a challenge; challenging physically, and mentally. I am doing much better mentally in thanks to all my wonderful friends that have been so supportive and encouraging. Not to mention Jake who has been so supportive and loving. But, I am finding that I am being challenged on a completely different mental level now. I am so emotional/hormonal that I don’t know what to do! I feel so bad for Jake sometimes. I seriously will bite his head off over nothing. And, I cry at the drop of a hat. It doesn’t matter what it is. In fact, I could almost start crying writing about crying! Lol!

Here is a good example of an emotional outburst.

We were watching a movie (Lars and the Real Girl) and I was laughing, and then I wasn’t. Jake looked at me like I had sprouted two heads (which I guess I will get a lot). The movie was excellent by the way, it really showed what true family love and neighborhood support is all about. Not a family movie really, but if you get the chance to have a movie night with the hubby, rent it. But, anyway, after the movie went off I cried for over an hour. I could not stop! Jake was supportive at first, and we were both kind of laughing about it. But I guess after about 30mins it became really funny to him, and not to funny to me. He started laughing again, and I got furious. So here I am sobbing and furious. Then I wasn’t even angry, I was just hurt that he would laugh. I knew at the time that it was ridiculous I feel that way. Then I felt really bad about it all and that made me cry even harder!

These emotions make me feel like I am going crazy! Lol! If you have any advise please give it!